January 08, 2008 11:54:25
I know its been a bit and im sorry for not keeping this up to date, but this evening as i lay waiting to fall asleep to the warm glow of the labtop that almost never rest, I read a post on my dear friend Abby's blog, and it reminded me of something i wrote about a year ago, that just fits. It was almost lost due laziness on my behalf of not haveing an archive and backup of my previous post... But i found it and with that said heres the prevoius poat:
Life has a melody, A rhythm of notes which exist once played in harmony with God's plan. Each note unique, each unlike the previous. Each being played in a symphony of billions. At first glance one would perceive theses billions of notes as a state Chaos, filled with unfiltered rage, distrust, unforgiving hatred, kindness, trust, undying love, and disorder. A bottomless gulf where anything and everything is possible. Yet every note is predefined, etched into life itself, by the one and only one conductor. Each note defined and designed to complement, counterpoint, and provide stratification to a significant other. Each note, setting a new path, a new tone, defining us, defining gods plans. But what if just once you where given the chance to play the one note that would open your eyes, heart, and mind to the orchestra of life. To see god's plan in action. To see how you are an instrument of god. To understand that without his direction you are nothing.
December 20, 2007 08:21:17
Ah finally a chance to breathe. After tomorrow i will be free for a week and a half to catch up on sleep, family and friends, so hopefully i will get a chance to hang out with most of you. This past week has been pretty intense, at work we got training on Adobe Flex which was four days of virtually having my brain plugged into the matrix and saying i want to know everything about how to do something and snap I know it. But damn does that make my head sore. Anyways its like 4 days till Christmas and i haven't bought a single present for anyone. It just doesn't feel like Christmas, most of my friends are far and away, and I try to keep the loneliness at bay by working more. I cant wait till i get to see all of them. I miss them!!!!!
December 11, 2007 02:43:59
Its late and i cant sleep and seeing that i finally get a chance to write down a few things i have been thinking about, i figured i would give it a go. I know i havent written in over month, which i know there is no excuse for not doing so, seeing if im going to keep a blog i should at least keep it upto date. Well the past month has been everything but slow, With Thanksgiving taking up most of one week, the next week saying goodbye, for now ;-(, to one of the best friends i have ever had, and just this past weekend welcoming one of my other good friends to becoming one of the 21+ crowd, and thats just the major points of the 30 some odd evenings that have past. During the day i have been working really hard on a new project of designing the user interface for our software using Flex by Adobe. And its like any other adobe product, very detailed and very powerful when used to its full potential, I have even been wanting to redesign The Music section with it, when i get a chance, i have had lots of request for improvements, plus it does need it. I havent really touched that code in at least 2 maybe 3 years.
But yeah i wont bore you with that stuff.... Other than that i have been tring my hardest to spread my time around to not just catch up but hang out with all my friends.. Which doesnt leave me much time for myself anymore, cause the second i get home from where ever i was, im just dead tired, and pass out. But i have found that my drive to and from work gives me that chance to think. I think about my life so far, and the future that lies ahead. So much is changing so fast and I want to embrace every moment of it, and at the same time want it to go faster. Im happy with the friends i have, they mean the world to me, my job, i couldnt ask for anything else better, but the times when i do have that free moment to step back and take a breath, the refreshing air that is ment to regenerate you, is slowly replaced with the emptiness in my heart. We are not ment to be alone, we are by gods design, ment to share our life and lifes experences with another. And at the time everything else seems to be all coming together, the main ingredient is nowhere in sight.
November 12, 2007 09:46:29
In the ebb and flows of life it seems im am returning to stable position. I bought a car on Saturday, a 2000 Dodge Neon, So that takes alot of stress off me as well as letting me return to my normal life and schedule. My grandma last time i checked was doing well so all in all things are looking up.